February 2012
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“Without death, there can be no life. No drive to ascend, no will to create and...”
– me
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Brevity is the essence of Wit
I’ve been blogging a long time. Since 2004. A girl I was dating then first got me started into it by making me sign up for an account just to comment on hers.
I’ve jumped a few ships, blogging-wise, since then, from Xanga, to Blogspot, and now Tumblr - if sites like deviantArt or Pinterest don’t count in any way.
Every time I moved it was to break away from what I was writing...
Surprise Visit
I don’t know what bothers me most:
that she’s going back to Toronto, that I’m too broke to follow or visit, or that I don’t know for sure if it would work if she stayed.
They all hurt.
But I know it’s legit. She’s a kindred spirit, and I would love to be with her more often.
I want to chase this. I’m just fucking scared of hitting disappointment or...
Blogging is like anything, really.
Once you start to feel you’re gathering an audience, it becomes a performance, regardless of its original purpose and nature.
And while I do love a good performance, turning what should be an outlet (albeit the intention was for it to be an entertaining one) into an act will only leave me with 1 more thing to drain me.
No, regardless of my fears, my only...
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Try Better Next Time.
I R le tired.
Woke up with the best of intentions (& plans?) today. No date for today, but I was ok, was gonna chill with an old friend tmrw, and work today. Was gonna send a bunch of friends Valentine’s msgs to remind them they’re special & I’m grateful to know them. Was gonna help a friend with work today like I promised yesterday.
Shoulda woulda coulda.
Get...
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"The word is transcend, bro, try it sometime"
I must say, after an awfully surprising conversation today, I’m feeling rather tepid at best about trusting a) women, and b) people who come clamoring for an audience / support to understand and respect anything particularly personal. I suppose the second one should go without saying; I have these green, fanciful thoughts that ppl caught in messes can at least understand what good things...
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“A gentleman is the guy who has long since stopped looking for the finish line.”
– This.
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January 2012
19 posts
Radio - "I WILL FU#%ING PULL GREATNESS OUT OF YOU" →
This isn’t cruising music.
This is what you listen to to work out.
This is what you use to pump yourself with before a big event, brace yourself for some life challenge, strengthen yourself against some big loss.
This is how you push yourself.
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New Plan
I was mean to her. Hard on her. Held her to standards higher than she was, or even I was. Somehow I believed she could live up to all of that. Never had that kind of faith in anyone before. I want to believe in someone like that again. And I don’t ever want my last memory of someone to be of doing them wrong again. I’ll treat her right, forgive the slip-ups, and give her every reason to...
I am clearly wasting my time, and effectively doing nothing about it.
That needs to change.
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This weekend could bring me so far down, or build me so far up
if it goes to the places I’m suspecting.
Can’t say things are boring at least ;)
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Letter of support to Geri
Preamble I still find it surprising that unintentional character limits exist on the web in this day and age (read: fuck ur msg system Tumblr :P ). But me aside.
I guess I’ll make an “open letter” of this. On the one hand, I know I’m not your favourite follower, Geri; on the other, I have the benefit of a pseudo-anonymous internet and oceans between us to buffer my...
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“This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can...”
– Relevant magazine (via charliebravo)
“Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned.” just like the intensity of a good workout, or the fire in a forge, this is going to BURN. but it’s true, there ain’t no other way.
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“The difference between ‘try’ and ‘triumph’ is a little...”
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Letters from the Universe
Dear Christopher,
This is the Universe calling. We’ve been watching you lately as you waver and doubt along the tightrope you’re walking. Just as your advice to others, we’ve come to remind you first not to look down. Your prize(s) always remain(s) above and ahead of you, so don’t distract yourself with fears of failure. Fight on, and you will fly.
Those feelings you...
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Price of freedom?
And now for a fun thought:
With the new year upon us, I thought of a fun experiment to run on myself. What would my financial freedom, as I imagine it now, cost me?
This is a fun game anyone can play with themselves: just add up what it would cost to do all the things you are obligated to do, plus all the things you want to do to be content. You can stretch this as far as you feel reasonable,...
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The chains that bind us
So more to what I wanted to write about, I have this chain.
not the metaphorical kind, an actual chain i wear around my neck, with medallions of religious figures. (3, actually: one after my namesake, one from a place i visited, and one for the patron of impossible causes.)
Thing is, it rusts. The whole thing does. And for a long time I had been putting it on out of habit, getting annoyed by it...
In passing
lol, read somewhere “You look a lot like my next girlfriend”
And for sure I’ve concluded (though I’ll quickly forget if I dont do it right away) that I need music back in my life. By that I mean, I need to carry a walkman of some kind with me again. I need the rhythm, I need the emotional inject, I need the energy!
Like my friend said today, “achieving a goal means...
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December 2011
9 posts
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“You’re not here anymore. You’ve got to leave in order to return to...”
– -J., Aleph
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Hey 2012, try not to kill me two weeks in, ok?
Maybe I’ll bother to write a proper post sometime soon to look back on it all this year, to share how my Christmas or my holidays went, if there are any good stories to come from tonight,
but I can say at least that I got a lot of love
My VISA feels lighter
I have some good new books to read
and after pining like a ——- for the last couple months over ghosts from the past, I...
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“The liberty of a democracy is not safe if the people tolerate the growth of...”
– Franklin D. Roosevelt (via abaldwin360)
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November 2011
11 posts
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Living in the Here and Now
When you lead your life in balance, you never fail. You walk forward happily, because your heart and your head walk in step with your body. You are in harmony.
My head was always in the future, my heart always in the past; I myself stood in the present moment, but neither of my guardians were watching my steps carefully enough, and while I moved forward with the ominous mountain in my sights and...
Too many geeks + alcohol
Guy 1: Hey birthday bitch! How'd you like to suck my dick?
Guy 2: Fuck no.
Guy 1: What if I paid you?
Guy 2: Fuck no.
Guy 3: What if, after sucking his dick, you suddenly gained the power of flight?
*Guys 1, 3, 4, 5 & 6 all stare in amazement and paralyzed shock*
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The Same Heart^0
heart, be light.
chest, constrict no more. float on high, on wings of hope
let virtue have her sway
dance to the flute of the day
the clouds are merely cotton candy
i want to feel your face near mine, know its safety i want this loss to go away
but the voice inside, it says be strong, fly anyway, fly
away.
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Instapaper Stories: The Geek Kings of Smut →
instapaperstories:
After once being the best thing that ever happened to porn, the Internet is now wreaking havoc: destroying some fortunes, making bigger ones, and serving as a stimulus plan, in more ways than one.
By Benjamin Wallace
For one brief moment here at the 2011 Adult Video Awards…
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